Some of you may recall I used to volunteer with a local charity/community group, volunteering with them in a number of ways, and even holding a chair on the committee group, as well as being their PR and Social Media Manager. Sadly due to personal reasons beyond my control I had to give up my roles as well as cutting all ties with them, then the pandemic hit and sadly the group didn't start up again.
Cutting all ties wasn't a decision I took lightly, in fact the final decision was an impulsive one, that happened on the back of a crying episode. I was caught up in my emotions and decided for my own mental health I needed to quit. So I did, and oh my didn't I regret my decision as soon as I made it. I cried - sobbed even, for weeks after. Not knowing what to do with myself, yearning to return, but mentally not being able to and knowing at the time it was something that I thought I needed to do, to escape the reality of the nightmare I was living in.
I'm not ready to go into detail just yet, and I don't know if I ever will, but what happened had nothing to do with the charity whatsoever. In fact if they were still operating I'd return to them in a heartbeat!
The last 10 weeks have brought massive changes to my life. I am free. I am at peace and I am so so happy, in fact - I am blessed. 10 weeks ago, life changed in a flash for the very best, it was one of the biggest decisions I've ever had to make in my life, but it was the best decision I've ever made, and if I wouldn't of made it then I never would have escaped, and I wouldn't be free - and I wouldn't be ME and be able to do whatever I want!
Whilst the charity I volunteered with sadly isn't operating anymore, sadly (because we live in 2024 and we shouldn't need such services but hey ho - that's the world for you) many other charities in the same sector are operating, and so I've signed up to volunteer with another charity! Not only have I signed up to be just a regular volunteer, but also a team leader too given my experience with the charity I volunteered with before. The way I feel so happy!!!
Eek, the way I am SO very excited to get back into helping and volunteering. It's my little way of giving back in this big old world that isn't always pleasant. Although I have health complaints, I'm thankful for my health, my life, my family, my friends, my job, my home and so much more. I am grateful and God only knows I'm trying my best whilst he's doing the rest. I am beyond blessed.
As the sayings go, 'one of the greatest gifts you can give is your time', 'we make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give' and 'whilst volunteers do not necessarily have the time, they do have a heart'. I can only do what I can, and only hope that my little tiny snippet of help makes a minuscule dent in the monumental ocean of help and services needed.
If someone would have said to me 10 weeks ago today that I'd soon be volunteering again, in the very same sector I 'quit', I would have laughed in their face. It really is true what they say though, you never know what's around the corner. Keep thinking positive, keep manifesting, and if you're religious keep praying. Life will get better, but we do have to help ourselves to become our true selves.
Life is good - I am blessed.
Jada x
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